the Dark Side

Lightworkers in the Dark

Kerry Moran May 13, 2020

Ayahuasca visions, despite their glamorous reputation, are not all light and love—they can be shockingly dark and downright disgusting. Sometimes people feel shame about what they experienced in ceremony, or in the surprisingly intense times that can arise afterwards. Working as an integration therapist, here’s what I find myself saying, over and over again: “What…

When Ayahuasca Triggers Trauma

Kerry Moran Mar 30, 2019

Ryan was a meditator, experienced with ayahuasca, so it surprised him (not in a good way) when a disturbing ceremony revealed the world as hollow and grotesquely meaningless. In the aftermath, he felt dissociated and numb. It took him the better part of a year to recover, and he was still wondering what had happened…

Owning The Dark Side

Kerry Moran Feb 27, 2019

I am not a fearmonger saying that ayahuasca is something dangerous to be avoided. Whether you as an individual should work with it, or not, I can’t say. I believe that ayahuasca has tremendous value as a transformational agent, for both individuals and the collective. As a therapist working with integration, I witness firsthand the…

Knowing When It’s Enough, Part II

Kerry Moran Nov 28, 2018

In ceremony a few years ago I received a most disagreeable vision of everyone in the circle lying back on their mats like giant infants, crying out “Give me more! Give me more!” The message couldn’t have been any clearer than if we’d appeared in diapers: immaturity, greedy appetite combined with shallow capacity—it was a…

Ayahuasca: Knowing When It’s Enough

Kerry Moran Nov 12, 2018

It’s one thing to know when you’re called to start working with ayahuasca. It’s an entirely different matter to know when to stop. When is it time to take a break, or […]

What Clients Are Saying

"In a single session I was able to resolve an issue that had been tormenting me since my retreat. I’m grateful for Kerry’s practical and experienced guidance, and the way she skillfully supported me to access my own inner knowing."

F. T., Fremantle, Australia

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F. T., Fremantle, Australia

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"I cannot give Kerry enough praise as a skilled, intuitive therapist and guide to inner work. She brings her significant experience, intelligence and wisdom to every situation, and always delivers me to a new level of myself."

M. L., Beijing, China

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M. L., Beijing, China

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"I found our integration session to be very insightful. I came to it fairly terrified. Kerry helped me back off from a very frightening cliff and find new meaning. I would recommend a session with her to anyone wanting to better understand and integrate their ayahuasca experience."

F. S., London, England

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F. S., London, England

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"Kerry has a very calming presence; it made it easy to talk to her, and I feel much more grounded and secure understanding that the medicine is still continuing to work with me, and that the things I was struggling with are actually opportunities to deepen my healing."

M. S., Aarhus, Denmark

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M. S., Aarhus, Denmark

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"Kerry has such a calming, soothing, relaxing presence, and her questions to me were spot-on, lighting up new understandings. I appreciate her wisdom and experience."

D. W., Urubamba, Peru

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2019-05-17T20:12:43-05:00

D. W., Urubamba, Peru

"Kerry has such a calming, soothing, relaxing presence, and her questions to me were spot-on, lighting up new understandings. I appreciate her wisdom and experience."

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From the Blog

Wisdom of the Purge, Part I
La Purga, “The Purge,” is one of ayahuasca’s names in the Amazon, highlighting a most notorious aspect of its reputation. The ayahuasca […]
Why Integration Is Not a Should
Very occasionally an integration session feels faintly out of alignment to me. It seems like the person I'm working with is doing it from a sense of duty, rather than a genuine desire to deepen into their own experience—as if they’re not quite sure what integration is, but they’ve heard it’s important, so they’re checking it off the post-ceremony to-do list. Sometimes we can explore together to tap into a genuine desire to grow; and then we’re integrating.
Medicine For These Times
Ayahuasca is spreading around the globe with astonishing rapidity. Increasing numbers of people are turning to it as a treatment of last resort, […]
Six Ways Ayahuasca Works Like a Good Trauma Therapist
It may seem farfetched to suggest that ayahuasca can work like a somatically based trauma therapist, but I’ve noted intriguing parallels between […]
We’re Not Made to Heal Alone
We humans need other humans—to call us on our stuff, to name our shadow. To see ourselves as we cannot. To initiate us into new paths and practices. […]